The first step is most definetly the hardest! I've been seeing T for 21 months now and we are just starting to talk about things that mean anything. For the several months I could hardly speak a word. Then, it took me about a year to be able to talk to her about everyday stuff, like what my plans were for the week etc. Now we are talking s-l-o-w--l-y about childhood issues. I needed to know my T before I could get to this point. I don't trust people easily and I didn't trust T easily. But, we've been through the good and the bad ( and boy- was it bad!) and T stuck by me and didn't abandon me, and hasn't abandonded me, and now I can talk to her about some things. It's not easy, but it's easier.

hang in there- you'll get there if you do.