Piggybacking off of PTSD's thread...

Why is it so hard for me to let myself be ok with being so attached to my T? I don't want to admit it to her at all, even though we've danced around the subject a bit. She has been away for two weeks and will be back this week and I missed her SOOOO much, but am totally ashamed to admit that to her! I mean, I'm a grown woman and here I am attached and missing someone who is paid to be in my life. It feels really wrong.

How do I let myself be ok with being attached? How do I not feel like a heel because I missed her while she was gone? I know she didn't miss me! I don't expect her to.

There were some great points in PTSDs thread, many of which really hit home and logically make a lot of sense to me. I just don't know how to allow myself to attach, be ok with the attachment, and hardest of all, admit it to myself and my T