I'm not sure if I have the complete answer but I used to be the same way with my first T. It was almost impossible for me to admit that I had feelings for her. It took me at least a year before I was able to tell her. Now I realize it was probably because I didn't understand that it was normal to have strong feelings for one's T. I felt ashamed and confused by my feelings. I didn't know you were supposed to have a relationship with your T when you're in therapy.

But you ARE! Does knowing that most people in therapy feel like you do help you feel better about it? Also, knowing that your T KNOWS that clients will attach to her, so she won't be shocked or surprised?

I remember struggling with telling my first T that I missed her when she was on vacation for the first time. I finally told her and she was very glad that I could! It's a sign of progress, not something to be ashamed about. It's hard because we feel vulnerable but we soon find that our T can be trusted with all of our feelings, including those about her.