NannyPat, thank you for your kind and supportive words. I have been crying since Friday off and on and that is one reason why I reached out here. I thought after the session Friday, I would have left feeling supported from my T, warm, and able to carry that with me through the week. I drove home from that session crying my eyes out because I left feeling like I'm just her 12 noon time slot that shed some tears that day. Nothing more.

Dizgirl, she just seemed so distant and I felt as though she didn't shine through during a time I really needed her to. I needed her to tell me I was safe there in her office and that I didn't need to escape from all the things I wanted to escape from. I felt like as I was melting down in my session that there was a robot looking at me. And it hurts. I am so hurt. From lots of things. Not just that. Just feeling so alone and hurt, with nobody to physically reach out and touch to feel secure. I feel supported here at PC, but I need for someone to physically be beside me. The void I feel right now is making almost hard to breath.