Hi fixxer, welcome to PC.

Well, you certainly picked the appropriate name for yourself. It is funny to see how people here at PC pick a name that really represents their self awareness in some way. And you do certainly have your hands full and no one can blame you for being at the end of your rope. But you are denying yourself something very important, THERAPY that you really need. And you are clearly trying to fix something that you cannot control, and that is long message that you are laying out in this thread.

The good part is that you have come to a point that you are recognizing that you do need help. And that is now the beginning of actually concluding that yes, you do need help. Your wife needs help too and it not unusual for a person who needs help to deny themselves of it, see how you have done it too? And all your efforts and your wifes efforts to ignore the need for help and just carry on the insanity of the day to day struggle has now taken a toll.

Ok, so you are the fixer here right? Because you do love your wife and you have tried to fix yourself around her and what being around her entails. You are the only one that can truely recognize that something has to be done. And that means that you have to accept the fact that YOU NEED TO GET HELP NO MATTER WHAT THE FINANCIAL BURDEN. And what the beginning of that entails is the suggestion that Direction is making, you have to fix you. And the real truth is that YOUR WIFE has to fix and address and help HERSELF. You wife obviously needs medication and therapy to help her deal with her mood swings that effect not only her but everyone around her, including the children even though she may seem to be a good mother. Children are not stupid, they can feel and see the confusion between you and your wife and it will EFFECT THEIR FEELINGS OF SAFETY AND SELF ESTEEM.

You should print out this post you made and find a therapist that specializes in dealing with bipolar patients. And you cannot keep denying it, you have to do it now. You have to do it for yourself and your children and hopefully a therapist can help you with how to get your wife involved in a treatment program. Because one down may be too down for her and it may cost the whole family.

You call yourself the fixer, you have to start with you and that means GETTING REAL HELP. You do not understand the capabilities of the condition called Bipolar. All you know is how it comes out in your wife. You have to get help for you by someone who can truely help you FIX YOU AND THE SITUATION.

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