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Originally Posted by Hope-Full
Piggybacking off of PTSD's thread...
Why is it so hard for me to let myself be ok with being so attached to my T? I don't want to admit it to her at all, even though we've danced around the subject a bit. She has been away for two weeks and will be back this week and I missed her SOOOO much, but am totally ashamed to admit that to her! I mean, I'm a grown woman and here I am attached and missing someone who is paid to be in my life. It feels really wrong.
How do I let myself be ok with being attached? How do I not feel like a heel because I missed her while she was gone? I know she didn't miss me! I don't expect her to.
There were some great points in PTSDs thread, many of which really hit home and logically make a lot of sense to me. I just don't know how to allow myself to attach, be ok with the attachment, and hardest of all, admit it to myself and my T  |
I can relate - sort of anyhow.
I resist attachment. From anyone. My pdoc is away. She is back late next week but I'll more than likely cancel my appt because the longer she is away, the more detached I become then she'll coax me back to my appt with the threat of hospitalisation if I don't go and we start trying to rebuild what little attachment was there before she went away. This cycle repeats each time I miss an appt.
Getting attached means I feel and I don't want to be attached to anyone except my husband and kids because they aren't going anywhere, I don't have to pay them to care about me and they aren't going to hold a grudge if I piss them off.