I'm visiting family for the 4th this long weekend. Big mistake. It's always a cost benefit analysis but my sister is here this year and I really miss my niece. When I was sleeping, my mother went through my purse and took my Paxil (she is anti meds). I am in hell. I don't have a GP here and can't get any and am seriously withdrawing. I want to email my T and tell her I quit. This sucks.

I'm done... seriously.... I have brain zaps and everything. I feel utterly inhuman, dependent on meds and therapy to get through normal. Life. I am so ANGRY. I'm tired of going to therapy and being like . None of this is worth it. I'm tired of being good. I QUIT.