If you were to have diabetes or some other illness that caused you to need meds, you would be dependent on them to have a normal life also. Just because something is a MI rather than a medical illness doesn't change that some things in our life require us to take extra measures in order to be well & feel ok in our life.

I have constant migraine headaches when I'm not on the pain medication that finally gave me back a normal life so that I can function & enjoy life again......the med is luckily a patch so I don't have to take pills....but it's really the same situation as you are in, just a different illness. I am so very thankful for the med & for the more normal life I can have & enjoy again.

I have finally found a wonderful psychologist who has made a world of difference in dealing with the PTSD & the anxiety & depression that I was going through & the DBT group has made all the difference in the world as far as psychology goes...much different than I ever experienced before since my depression hit in 1994.

Taking your meds does make a difference as you see now that you aren't able to take them. I would definitely be angry with mother, but not the therapy or the meds.....they are what helps you....what your mother did was a harm to you....& you can definitely SEE the difference in how you are feeling. Feeling more normal is definitely worth taking a med & having a T to help.