Last, your mother seriously needs to realize the severity of what she did. She put you in harms way by taking your meds like that. Its very hard to think logically and function when in withdrawl. Can you perhaps go for a walk? or meditate? or read or write or anything at all to try to bring yourself down a little. Keep posting here, anything. I wish I could just through the computer screen and help you. Please be gentle with you, and safe hugs.