Well at least you are recognizing that you have to take steps. You did have a good job so I suggest you find another job that can support you again, on your own. If you did it once you can do it again. I know the economy is tough but you need to have a plan. In the meantime you need to find ways to be busy and away from him as much as you can. Maybe you could find a place where someone is looking for a roomate to help cover expenses. You only have two cats and most people don't mind cats that much. You have to roll up your sleves and get into those newspapers on online and start looking for options. You did it before and you can do it again and that is the way you have to look at it.

I am sorry that you have to be in such a position, I understand how hard it is to feel so uncomfortable and exposed in your situation. But your still only in your 40's so your still young enough to try to find a job that you can get back to taking care of yourself.

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