i know this is the wrong way to be in t. and dont deliberately do it. but its what i do. when im there i put up such a wall. i cant believe she tolerates it. its like im in a different room than her. i just happen to be able to hear her. there is zero connection from me. i dont look at her. and when i do talk to her its in a distant spaced out kind of way. and very brief. i am a master of being able to answer nearly any question with one word unfortunately. she tries to connect. i can tell. i dont know how to stop doing this.
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