I'm going through the same thing, I've lost everything in my life and I'm only 25 but 5 years ago at 20 I was a self made very successfulperson, I've since lost my gf of 6 years and am financially rueind and don't have one single freind and bc of my depression I've enterd, it has caused great trouble with my family who I'm on the verge of loosing, I hate what my life has become and I think of suicide everyday. Now I'm abusing alcohol and marijuana,I truly am getting tired of this lonely hopless existence that I'm trapped in