I've been struggling with my increasing attraction to my T. At first I hated T, then I was indifferent, then I was fond, and now I love her. I love her as my mother though. Lately, however, I've been feeling some stirrings within me. When I first met her I didn't find her attractive, not ugly but average. She still isn't attractive to me, but she has definitely grown in beauty since I have begun to love her. I sooo don't want to have an attraction to her because it just messes up the filial love I feel her and is just outright creepy considering!

So I hope scorposis and Indie are right-- that I am attracted to how she makes me feel, especially I haven't a romantic interest at the moment. In a perfect world, I suppose I'd want her to be my partner, but since romantic relationship did not to last, I'd rather keep her as my therapist/honorary mother forever.