Talking on the phone more difficult than in person. I would have waited to see her in person to talk about the real issues too.

Good luck on the surgery, even if it is minor. The way you have been using that to keep from cuting makes perfect sense to me, in a couple of ways actually.

Hang in there - I admire your strength. Even though it's hard right now, I can see that you are on the path to better things.

Take Care,