Well I have 2 things on my mind as i read it:
1. I know how it feels to fear people...and to deal with things you are mostly afraid of - and i know anxiety is a disorder - but can`t you try for a challenge - to get any kind of job and see how you are doing....the worst that can happen is that you will find yourself jobless again if you quit and find it really bad. You cannot avoid people all your life - do you go to therapy?
2. There are sites that need people who examine stuff like testimony for products - technology, etc - then the person just writes a review for the site...and gets paid. I know a friend from college who did that. There are companies out there who hire people to work from home....i think you can find online...
But I WOULD highly recommend you for your own good to try and go for a normal job (or have 2 - one from home and one - like maybe 2 shifts a week - you don`t have to work THE WHOLE WEEK so that you DEVELOP social skills. I am at in a similar situation - just found a job - it is hard it does hurt and it does stress - BUT THE FACT I DEAL WITH IT ...you understand? It can make a change!
We fear fear itself many times... we have so many horrible things in our imagination that we frighten ourselves to death. But many times when we come to deal with those things we see that we had very little to fear...actually.
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