So my plan is to find a job that pays more so i can afford to leave.
Once i have that in place i can go - my awesome friends are so supportive - my best friend told me she will buy me whatever i need, like a vacuum, toaster, microwave, whatever stuff i got rid of when I moved in with my hsband.

My actual career is helping people find jobs, so hopefully I can do it for myself.

After the latest blow out with him last night where he basically told me that "he can't deal with this anymore blah blah blah" he came in my room and acted like nothing happened and talked about us moving to another state!
like moving away would solve everything.
and i just said ok.
If I pretend to be a stepford wife it goes great. And i will do that till I can leave if i can because it works better than crying.