Please...for yourself get a new Pdoc! A true professional isn't going to let you take these meds and not supervise your progression and side effects!
I just recently stopped taking anti depressants which weren't making my situation any easier! After stopping...it's a week now, and I'm begining to feel better. I know that if I start to feel overwhelmed or stressed, I'm going to end up where I started!
The fact that you went a sought out help says a lot! You tried to get help, unfortunatly this wasn't the right Pdoc for you. Please don't give up! There is a pdoc out there for you! In the meantime, do you have someone to talk to, a therapist?
I hope that this gives you some encouragement