I understand a little how you feel. I think I would give just about anything to have my own baby. I want to be able to know what it feels like to be pregnant. I want the whole experience. It makes me really depressed to know that I probably will never get any of that. I started having female surgeries because of endometriosis and ovarian cysts when I was around 25 and now at the age 31 I only have one tube and ovary. I know there is still a chance but its very minimal. Anyway, you may want to see a doctor if you haven't already. There are a lot of things that can help. Good Luck!!!