In case you haven't read my post in the Emotions area, I'll sum it up lightly: my sister has antisocial personality disorder. For good reason. She wasn't shown love or care at all in youth (or beyond). I'm 4 years younger than her, and have always been aware that my sister was not shown love. It bugged the heck out of me ~ always! My brother (3 years older than I, 1 year younger than sis) hated each other. They fought very hard all of the time. I would stand and scream (at the top of my lungs) for them to stop.

I hated the fights, the screaming, the anger. So much emotion, and so intense. I just wanted to escape the insanity!! My poor sister chose to grow up in juvenile hall, rather than at home (when she was in court). How freaking sad!

Anyway, my sister contacted me through facebook. Wonderful ~ because I hadn't seen or talked with her in about 15 years! I am also filled with a lot of anxiety and anger (towards my parents & family). I can't stand it!! Why am I the only one in the family who cares about her?! Freaking sick, pos parents! I HATE them!!! How could they live with themselves? I don't understand!

My sister thankfully remembers the dark times that have been plaguing my memory ~ incest, molestation, etc. I am not making these memories up! Now, what's their defense?? These emotions are overpowering inside of me. I can feel a huge heaviness inside my chest as I type this.

I just saw my T today & now have 2 weeks before I can see him again. Holy crap! How am I going to make it until then??? Please, please help me through this hell.

Shez