I'm afraid my husband will die one day and I wont be able to take care of myself, the kids or out finances. Because of this, I don't know if I love my husband or need him...I'm constantly confused about that.
I'm afraid of being hospitalized.
I'm afraid I'm a bad wife and mom.

Hold on I hear bath water running......nope it wasn't.

I'm afraid of making friends but really want to.
I'm afraid of drowning.

I'll post more if I think of anymore. [/quote]

These things you posted are right on with me! Loved the bath water running, I often hear "things" and see shadows, my docs know about this. My T thinks its just part of the disease; my Pdoc thinks its lack of sleep. I too fear drowning and would love to have friends that are really truly friends but I am so scared to make them. My husband and I are in a place right now where it may or may not end, just not sure- but it's interesting that someone else is worried they may just need their husband. Thanks for that!