Many times I've said to my bf that its over and that I'm no longer happy in our relationship of 2 years. I've posted a few times on here that I've left him and then I find myself going back to him bc as unhappy that I am with him it is still a form of comfort something that is familiar to me. Every time he brings up about my seizures it just makes me feel weak and insecure and then I find myself going back to him. He tells me he'll always be there for me regardless and somehow it makes me feel like I won't ever find someone as accepting as him. Well I told him again today that I'm leaving him and I can't live like this again.

How do you finally stand your ground and stay away from the person that you still love but you're just not happy. It was love that kept me in the relationship but everything around us was all wrong. It was bc of my insecurities with not being able to find someone as accepting as he's been with my seizures that I find myself calling him when I'm feel sick and I fall back into his arms and I give him a chance again. As much as he loves me and I love him too but in reality where he is in his life he can't be the man to take care of me to be that foundation, that rock in my life to help both of us move foreword in life. I want us to become partners not one person giving more than the other. These two years has been a long fight, many burdens and now I'm tired and I'm standing up for myself but my insecurities has been getting the best of me and I find myself wanting to call him. The problem is not about the love because we love each other deeply but where we are in our life right now, we are not right for one another.