I have an education in psychology myself. I am working on finishing my degree to become a psychiatrist ironically. So I am not just taking information from online or other people. I actually know that bipolar/DID/scitzophernia are often misdiagnosed one for the other. Also people with DID usually go about 7 yrs approx. before being properly diagnosed. I did finally get one doc to listen to my concerns and scitozphernia was ruled out but he was a temporary doc. So far none of the meds work...all that works is anxiety meds or finding other ways to reduce stress.
Even though there is no med to actually treat DID...they do usually give anti-anxiety meds to help with it and it works pretty good as C-PTSD and other anxiety problems usually go hand in hand. I can't wait to see the p doc today and am hopeful that he will listen to my concerns. Honestly, I just want to be on the right meds ones that work. I have been accused of not taking meds when I get "sick" when I took them faithfully. I have never had a problem taking the meds doesn't bother me in the least to take them.
I have a pattern that works like clockwork. Major stress usually a form of abuse...either past or present stuff...causes high anxiety making it difficult to fall asleep and within less than 12-24hrs I am "sick". Without an anxiety med in place I will continue to get sick whenever stress gets too high...worse is I can handle a lot so when I get "sick" it is a sign I need help in my life with abuse issues. So far I haven't had much luck in the mental health field. I am in a new state so I am hoping it will go better here.
The positives are my family doctor knows there is abuse going on she has almost called DFS on my husband a few times. There are also a few others that do know the truth and know me well enough to know I only want to take care of my health for myself and my family. I'm trying not to stress.
I am tired of being misunderstood. I am tired of people not understanding what I am going through during the so called "episodes". Although, it appears crazy on the outside. It makes perfect sense. My son helped me a lot cause he has had to deal with several personalities himself. He says I am nice no matter who I am but he did think it was funny was I became the teenager cause he is a teenager...though he felt for me it tickled his funny bone.
I have a tendency to accept whatever they tell me...part of my past abuse issues. It hasn't been until recently that I decided I am not going to get anywhere unless I speak up and tell them what I am going through. No one has really asked. As long as it is an educated answer that makes sense then I have no problem accepting the answer, whatever the answer is. But when 2+2=20 I have a problem with it.
Thank you so much for the feedback!