Secretum,

Thank you for your kind words.

It is in the past, you are right. Even though it feels like yesterday. Before my sister contacted me last week, I've been struggling with the memories of my childhood. Pulled back almost completely from my family ~ because I can't stand it. Those memories are even more intense now.

My BPD makes even more sense. Awfully hard for me to trust my parents, given what I saw & went through as I was growing up. My emotions were a seesaw then ~ desperate to get my family to get along & show love to each other. It was impossible! Sad

Hopefully, the intensity of these emotions and memories will wane soon. My daughters coming over ought to help, as that requires lots of attention! Thank you for your thoughtful post. I appreciate it!

Shez