Bless your heart ~ this is NOT a good relationship and the sooner you can get out of there, the better it will be for your mental health.
You have enough to deal with already, without an abusive husband too!! I think I'd head for a women's shelter temporarily -- until you can find and afford proper housing. I'm sure your friends would look after your cats until you can get into your own place.
The longer you stay, the more harmful it will be to you. You don't want to "undo" all the progress you've made in therapy. I lived with an emotionally & psychologically abusive man for 26 years -- and it took me a long time to "recover" from the insults, name-calling & general abuse. My self esteem was in the gutter -- and it's hard to get that back.
I wish you the very best -- I hope you can leave soon. God bless & take care. Hugs, Lee
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