There is not a lot of good things I can say about my therapy experience. In my opinion therapy did me more harm than good. Not only did this T see me, but he saw my 11 yr old son. A few months in therapy my son comes home all upset, demanding and fillled with anger that his "baby book" was not fully completed. He then went on a rage saying I wanted a girl and not a boy. All his anger was now being vented at me within a few months of therapy.. I became my son's punching bag.. This is what therapy is to do??? When it was his father who lived two miles from us did not even call or see his son for almost a year. And then when his father did pick up our son, he would take him to his brother's and leave him there and go out. My son would call me crying and I would go pick him up......... Oh God what a mess.. Not to mention whatever was happening to me... And this man who calls himself a pastoral counselor thought he was helping....When not only was I getting worse, but my son was now starting to act out... Which earned him a dx of ODD.. He had ODD like I have a hole in my head... I still don't see how when my son and I walked arm in arm into the T's office and the next thing my son hates my guts.... Yea for therapy... I think the only thing I was good at was being a mother and now that was flushed down the toilet...
Grant it, something was happening to me that I didn't understand. I wasn't "emotionally" doing that well and was hanging on by a thin thread for my sanity.... I told this T he wasn't helping and could he refer me to someone else.. He said he didn't know anyone to send me to.. I tried to quit many times and he always put me on this guilt trip and say I needed therapy and it would be against his advice for me to quit... yada yada yada Because I didn't know any better and thought I was getting worse was because of me and not the therapy.. I blamed me.. I worked hard in T. I would of done most anyting to get back on track... And all therapy did was keep me derailed.........I lost a few years I can't account for. Between the panic and fear I was too afraid to leave.. Is this what therapy is supost to do???? Ok so instead of blaming the T, I will take the blame for "failing" therapy..... But I can say I will never ever see another T again.. Sad thing is tho, as long as he has his office in a church, I will never go back to church.. Makes me cringe thinking he is working out of a church and he does more harm than good...........
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