Maybe I just sound strange in asking this question.
But let me explain: I have a difficult time staying connecting to the present. I have a difficult time believing anyone cares about me. I am so hurt and damaged inside.
So, I bought this mechanical pencil because my T always uses one when she rights in her planner or writes out a journaling assignment for me. And, I bought her the same one because she was needing a new one.
Long story short, I used the pencil for the past 2 weeks and it helped me stay connected and reminded me my T is there for me and is helping me.

I am very overly upset because today my pencil broke. I think I put too much lead in it so I guess it is my fault. But, it meant something to me and it helped me.

And I am sad.

But, I was wondering if anyone does anything like this???