Silver, I have a son your age and I really hope I never come across as mean like your dad. He doesn't know what to do or say and no, he just doesn't get it. He is worried about who you will become. Maybe he still thinks that's a reflection on him. I wish you could tell him people go to college at all ages and change professions etc. You need to deal with depression number one, or rather Silver number one. Did I ever tell you there is a variety of sweet corn grown around here called Silver Queen? Hon, please do take care of yourself, get help and you don't have to believe him. May peace find you today and hold you if only for a moment.