Thank you wanttoheal for your sweetness! I sure needed that really!

Saw the p doc today and don't know why I was so filled with anxiety over it....he declared that I AM NOT bipolar. I have C-PTSD and he agrees that it sounds like DID and he and the therapist are going to try to help me stay in control and mend. Changed my meds too. anti anxiety and an anti depressant....the two meds i told everyone worked for me ativan and celexa.

So I am pretty excited that someone finally was willing to really listen and hear me out. He asked a lot of questioins to it was over an hour...not a 5 min diagnoses that is for sure. I appreciate all of you for being a sounding board.

wanttoheal...when I say episodes that is what other people call them...when I start going through my alters tons and their reality and pasts are sooo different that it looks like mania or psychosis craziness at any rate. It is where I am in the "back of the bus" so to speak and not in control.

~AngelsRUs