I carry a great guilt about an unresolved inexplicable action on my part while I was in grade school.

To this day I can not tell you why I did this. What happened and my memory is rather vague about this but some how in the girls bathroom, there was another girl that I seemed to be bullying. All I did was I made her take off her panties. Threw them away... and just left her there.

I feel sooo horrible because I dont know why I did it. And worse the knowledge that somewhere in this world I terrorized a child for no reason.

Now I wonder if that was an early manifestation of the sexual abuse I was going through.

Any insight? And please don't dress it up. Tell me the raw truth as you see it, whatever it may be.

Thank you