Thank you Eskie and Rohag for letting me vent like this. I wasn't sure whether to share this and I also felt guilty for doubting her actions. If I'm mistaken and she does have these spontanous reactions then I would feel guilty for ny empathizing enough, so I'm left with these confusing feelings. I researched the proper Muslim funeral practices, so I feel comfort in knowing I'm right with some of these feelings. At that moment I wasn't feeling somber from his his death but stressed out. The poor funeral home yard workers were waiting for an hour in the hot for us to leave so they could fill in the dirt.

I noticed the last few years with some Christian funerals that they're getting away from just the grieving type funerals and leaning toward a 'celebration' of a persons life. I went to a famous hockey players funeral and they even have live Christian band at the service - it was a nice balance between respectful grieving and focusing on the persons life and the good they achieved.

At least my husband did well and quietly cried while embracing my girls. After we all went to another brothers house and my husband left after a few minutes. He went to the grocery store and bought six already cooked chickens, and shrimp for a stir fry dish. He made all the salad and the stir fry dish and I thought that was very thoughtful. I know him and I have our problems but he does have a kind and helpful side - I'm able to see this despite his faults.