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Originally Posted by nycgurl
I am BP II. I feel like crap most of the time. I hide it well. I am certain I have been BP II since forever. I was once diagnosed as Borderline. But my Dr. said the two are often confused. I have been on every medication known and nothing has worked.
My "mania" manifests itself either as severe anxiety or violence towards myself, things and even my poor husband.
I am 40. I have 2 kids. If it were not for them I would not be here.
BP II is taking me away from the life I wish to lead.
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Hey nycgurl- I loved reading your post....I am also 40 and just diagnosed but feel that I have been this way as long as I can remember. I don't have the violence or agitation but I did awhile back, now I have more sad and disconnect; but I often wondered about being Borderline.
If it wasn't for my son, I would not be here either and because of that I constantly worry that now he will be taken from me somehow.
Please remember though that you are not alone.....it seems that everytime I read someone else's posts I can relate. I don't even know what the life I want to lead is anymore...I'm so disconnected from reality and "normal"....hang in there-
