So after seeing T for the 2nd time this week. So I have been having issues(always have) with sui. i scraped by tuesday somehow and didnt end up in the hospital...same goes for wed. with T. So today I go in with a typed out page of my history with sui. And instead of being sent to hospital I get the possibilty of a new diagnosis OCD...but she has to and is going to talk to pdoc and see what she thinks. However T seemed pretty confident that was it.

I left today feeling some relief that it appears I may get a hopefully longer lasting relief when this gets treated. However now that it has had time to set in more...Im pissed because of the realization she may truly be right just based on the noticings of today since the appt. Im so mad im nearly in tears.

When do the diagnoses stop coming and the recovery/healing really begin???????????? I mean truly truly begin!