I am happy my T has clients because that helps him pay his bills. My once a week visit wouldn't be enough for him to pay for his office space. LOL. But the funny thing is that he did buy himself a new truck this year and I actually thought to myself "Look! I am buying my T his new truck!" I laughed at myself a lot for that automatic thought!

It is strange for me to see other clients when they leave, but not because I am jeleous of them. It is because I often hear them laughing at the end of session and my sessions are usually painful. I think to myself "Why am I even bothering this man with my sadness when he could have filled the time with clients who make him laugh?" So I tend to feel like I am the client he hates to see, even though he always acts ok to see me.

Because I do like my T and think of him as a good guy, I tend to want only the best for him. So I am very happy he has his other clients and that some of them can make him smile :-)