Byzantine!

Thanks for sharing this with us. You are so full of good links and I appreciate you taking the time to share them. One thing I want to affirm from the article are:

"It seemed easier to believe that nobody cared so I didn’t have to care myself. "

It has been a long time since I have truly been in therapy and taken the time to look at some of my underlying beliefs. She is so right, if I truly feel that nobody cares, then why should I? It's a pass to continue in my misery. Now I am aware of this it is my responsibility to challenge the thought.

When I say nobody cares, what I typically mean is I am not allowing myself to feel as if anybody truly cares. I am not able to let people in. If they can't penetrate my walls then how can their support?

For me it has to come down to letting people in slowly and allowing myself to feel loved and nurtured. After all, I deserve it! I think she hit on a core principle in dealing with recovery from depression and that is, I must challenge my faulty beliefs.

Thanks again Byzantine! BTW I too struggle with the treatment resistant label. If you ever want to chat PM me.

Love and hugs,
Tara