Chronic, I'm my therapist's first client after she returns from lunch, so I never have to wait for another client to be done with their session. I encounter other clients when I leave, but it doesn't bother me. I know how popular and good my T is and it makes me feel so blessed to be part of what I call her "healing community". I will admit that I don't want anyone that I know seeing her, but over the past few months even that isn't as much of a source of anxiety for me as it used to be. I think the reason for that is that my T reassures me and I'm also confident enough NOW to know that my relationship with her is very important and that she loves me. If I sat and tried to analyze her love and care for me versus her love and care for her other clients I would make myself absolutely crazy. I bet your T looks forward to seeing you, because it helps him put his knowledge and abilities to work that he spent years learning. So, you are giving him the opportunity to be with you and to put into practice his knowledge, and I think that is a big gift that you're giving him. Just by you showing up to your sessions is, I'm sure, a blessing to him. Yep, I think you're pretty important to your T, Chronic.

WePow, I am the client that does laugh a lot with my T, and sometimes it's nervous laughter and usually occurs before or after I've dug deep and the session's been very difficult and serious. So, I try and bring in my comedy act to deflect from the painful (but needed and productive) session I just had. So, try not to judge yourself on not laughing with your T, because sometimes that laughter is just a result of lots of pain and your T trying to make a transition for the client back into real life before leaving the session.

My T said she loves hearing all of my good and funny things, but wants me to tell her the most horrible, deep, dark things, too, because that is what I'm in therapy for. Your T wouldn't have a practice if he dealt with happy, giggly, good news people all day. He wants to hear your pain and your struggles, because that's what he does. You and your pain ARE important.