There I admitted it to my self, I want to quit all the harm that I do, not only to my body but to my mind.

After getting frustrated with an online application, I've learned a few things about myself.
1. I have not been getting better, I've gotten worse. I've kept things in for far to long, and need that release some how. I've kept in how much I can't stand the clashing of T and my beliefs, that it's messed me up even more.
2. Living with a sister is hard when she has had a divorce and it's changed her, she internalizes things, and wont allow herself to have it come out. And if someone speaks up like how her ex did, then be careful, she'll run from the problem.
3. and the most hardest one, I hate who I've become, and I'm not sure who else to be. I used to believe in myself, but I really don't. I'm not even sure I can let myself become a different person. When I need someone, I don't even know who or if someone would come to help me.
Now that I see it on screen, I don't like it at all. I've SI'ed more times in the last week than I have in the past few months. I'm sliding backwards, and falling quick.

Please someone, be there for me. Please