Hi
I was born with a vascular malformation (AVM) in my brain, which bled when I was 8 in 1959. I am a lucky person to be alive. That is really how I feel. But I forget I feel this way, I forget I cannot see to the left in both eyes, I forget to look, I walk into anything not supposed to be where it is, I fall into houses due to lighting change from daylight if there is a step, I get speechless and embarrassed. I totally forget which direction to go to get out of any new place, and with a crowded place, I just leave as fast as possible, thereby sometimes getting more lost. I tell you this because I have no doubt my brain bleed and surgery in 1959 and no rehab, no discussions, are directly related to the following:
OCD, ADD, depression, anxiety mostly social, panic, now under control, BDM (I have avoided all mirrors for a lot of years, not just cause I am not young anymore. I cannot look in a mirror, and am very good at avoiding them due to the nature of my vision.

Right now I am content, feel happy, am hungry, did a lot of work today. This could change at any time, depending on what happens. I am so much better in the past year than I have been, except for social angst, and the mirrors, so I am mostly trusting that I can handle what comes along. But who really knows? I am my own family. Knowing that is half the battle. I try to depend on myself at the same time as I am getting older. That is not easy. Worth it though.
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