First off let me explain a few things. I am severely afraid of judgement as far as the following topic goes and have been a victim of it on other boards, so please if you will, refrain from saying anything hurtful or going out of the way to make me feel like garbage for posting this. I and a group of friends follow this band. I don't want to name any names because they are celebrities and if I did name them, I am sure a lot of you would know exactly who I am talking about and I could possibly be a victim of prejudice as far as "fan bases" and social groups go. I have been called very nasty names for being a fan from my classmates and general trolling and cyber bullying. No matter who it comes from, stranger or not, being called names hurts. The band's fanbase has been given the stereotype of being a younger crowd mainly girls and the fact that I am 25, prompted a group of people at my school to accuse me of having a sexual attraction to younger girls which is extremely false and something I would not even THINK of doing. I am not the only one who is in their 20s that like this band. Actually, a good percentage of their fans are in that age range and because of the company they are currently associated with, the stereotype emerged possibly based off assumption, that only children and pre teens like them. I've been called everything from a pedophile to having delusions of erotomania. Before I get called a stalker, I am going to explain something. They publicly announced at one point in their career, what hotel they stay at when they visit NYC.It is even featured in the city's tour that takes you to where celebrities are mainly found or where they have homes. Those who are not informed of this, have told me to seek professional help because I have met them there several times and refuse to believe me when I tell them what I mentioned above. The band themselves have not responded negatively to my presence at this hotel, nor to the crowd of many others who do the same as I do. We merely stand outside on the pavement in front of the hotel eagerly awaiting a handshake, picture, or autograph in which the hotel staff has no problem in allowing us. It is not a matter of committing an illegal act that could mean jail time, something that a lot of people have jumped to conclusions about when judging me. I will admit I have a "thing" for the lead singer, which due to fear of rejection, being laughed at by him, and possible retaliation from his bodyguards, I have not told him so ,find even thinking about doing that a big "no no" in itself and feeling like there may be even a remote possibility of he being attracted to me a reason to question my own sanity. My fear about this whole thing is that I really am suffering from delusions of erotomania, as I am accused of by those who are aware of that type of behavior, and that this band is putting on a front for me but really going "she's here again?" once they leave, although they mentioned several times in interviews that seeing familiar faces makes them feel "accomplished". I am fearful that because I have studied body language in the past and use the knowledge I have on it in meeting this band and my attraction to the lead singer that it's consistent with the belief that a person is sending subliminal messages of attraction to the patient suffering from erotomanic delusions. I am fearful that I am excluded from that statement in the interview. I do not know how to handle this. I do enjoy following this band, listening to their music, going to their concerts and meeting them at this hotel with my friends. In fact, if it werent for this band, I would not have the close friends I have today. It has not negatively impacted my school work, in fact, my gpa went up dramatically since I started doing this and was a few points from making Dean's List last semester. But what I am wondering is if I am acting in a bizarre manner or are people just being downright mean, cruel, ignorant and judgmental because they know little about the social group I belong to and assume it's one way when it's possibly the opposite. I need to know what to say to these people, and how to deal with the social phobia they put me into. I am fearful of judgement to the point where I won't even wear a T-shirt of the band. So far my coping with the harassment is to just assume that everyone on campus is a "hater" and to say " i prefer not to say" when asked "what music do you listen to?" because to some, it is like discussing religion and politics and people judge you on your music taste at the drop of a hat in college, even question your IQ level.