Excuse the song title...it's just running thru my head. So here's the deal, I am in a lot of distress and I am not coping very well. Everytime I get into old stuff with T I am nuts for several days. My family is concerned. H and Kids want me to do a 2 week residential program (not inpatient/not hospital). It's like a partial, except I would stay there as it is too far away to commute...nights/weekends are mine though. Anyhow, I thought that maybe upping T to 2x a week would be a better alternative. So I emailed T and he basically agrees with my family...idiot. He totally ignored the 2X week suggestion. I can't help but think it's because he doesn't want to deal with seeing me twice, like once a week is too much already for him. He also wants my family involved so they can help me when I am in distress. He wants a family meeting. I don't want them involved. My kids (21 & 24) shouldn't be concerned about helping me, they should be out living and having the time of their lives. H won't be a help anyways, he works two jobs and he certainly doesn't need my crap to deal with on top of that. That's probably why they want me to go away, they can't stand me anymore. I don't blame them, I can't stand myself. So T doesn't want me, family doesn't want me...where's a chick to go? I sometimes think about getting in the water and swimming straight out until I tire too much to make it back. Everyone wins in that scenario. Except the finances aren't there to take care of final stuff. So i am stuck.