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Originally Posted by WikidPissah
I am in a lot of distress and I am not coping very well. Everytime I get into old stuff with T I am nuts for several days.
My family is concerned.
H and Kids want me to do a 2 week residential program So I emailed T and he basically agrees with my family...idiot. I can't help but think it's because he doesn't want to deal with seeing me twice, like once a week is too much already for him. That's probably why they want me to go away, they can't stand me anymore.
So T doesn't want me, family doesn't want me...where's a chick to go?
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I pulled out parts of your post in my quote because from the outside, it SO looks like you are mind-reading and assuming the worst. You start out by saying what a hard time you're having and that your family is concerned...but you work your way towards "nobody wants me".
It sounds to me like people DO want you, and they want you to feel better. I know it's easy to hear "we think you need more help" as "go away", ESPECIALLY when we are in those moments when we DO need more help. That distress and depression and pain color everything around us...even the love that other people have for us. I know that for me, when I feel so bad about myself, it's almost impossible to believe that anyone else would feel any differently, but I also know that as true as that feels, it's wrong. I don't FEEL like it's wrong, but I understand intellectually that it is, you know?
I hate the feeling of being sad and STUCK and I'm sorry you feel that way. Let the people around you who love and care about you help you. Sometimes when all we can see is darkness, they can illuminate a path back towards the light.
