Hello, beauflow. I doubt you would have posted if did not believe your behavior is adversely affecting your life. I am not competent to be of much assistance. You might consider a complete physical to rule out a somatic problem. If you have a good relationship with your doctor, you could talk to him/her about what is going on. Perhaps the doctor could advise you if he/she thought a psychological assessment is in order.

It might help to print a copy of your post for your doctor.

Good luck with whatever you decide.