Just want you to know your not alone. I was only diagnosed with BPD recently although i have suspected it for a long time. Its still a hard pill to swallow. However in finally hearing the dx , so much made sense to me finally. I wonder if it is possible for you to get some good info on your dx and share it with some of the people in your life that mean a lot to you and you feel you can trust. It may help them understand you a little better.... as far as the who i am thing .........im clueless too , but hopeful!