I think you need to give your kids more credit maybe. I would find the books "Loving with someone who'd living with bipolar disorder" and "Living with someone who is living with Bipolar disorder." Tell them when you're rational, and tell them when you think their mind is open. Spirituality will help with this, but the books will help them understand you're past life, and help them to see they have no blame in this, and that it's a disease you have to deal with as a family. xoxoxo Hope this helps.