double dipping here..we're all in a quest, imho, for bettering self tho at times it can be painful. when we stagnate no progress can be made and we stay stuck. for me it's no pain, no gain. it isn't easy but i forge forward. if i become exhausted doing that i take a break. sometimes i believe there are more questions than answers to help solve my complex being. i know i will never understand all the answers. i have felt utter loneliness at times, cut off from people, not understanding how life "works", feeling afraid to divulge my inner feelings and concerns, trusting others when i have been disappointed with the result. i'm a work in progress. that's the best i can do. it takes courage to seek knowledge, seek understanding and sharing our feelings with others, imo.