Ok so I am going to keep this short and brief. I have been married for 1 year and my husband knew trhat I had a mental illness but he never knew how bad it really could get. I had a major episode in March. I tried to commit suicide but obviously it didn't work. I checked myself in a Mental Behavioral Center for a week. I just moved back home to Georgia without my husband to get my life back in order. And he called me one day and said I dont want to be married anymore. I asked why and he said " What if we move like we say we are and the world becomes to much for you again? What are you going to do? I didn't know it was this bad." I told him I am not getting a divorce and that I was about to start therapy again. He says now that we can do marriage counseling but that doesn't mean we are still going to be together. He tells me all the time taht he really wants to be with me, he loves me and he is having the hardest time with his decision but he thinks it is best for me.

I explained it wasn't all him that it was so much going on I just couldn't cope, but the truth is I was raped in February and didn't tell him what really happened. He thinks that my friend at the time boyfriend asked me to have sex he doesn't know he raped me. Now I am afraid that if I tell him now he is just going to thinkI am just saying it because I don't want a divorce.

I don't know what to do. Should I go to my therapy first and deak with the rape and molestation issues? Then when I am ready do the marriage counseling with him and when the time comes tell him? I just don't know. I feel horrible for not telling him. I thought he would try to hurt the guy and wind up in jail or blame me and be mad with me. I just want my family back. We have a son and I want us to all be happy. Please if you have any advice leave me a message.

By the way I am a consumer or Dsythimic, PTSD, and Anxiety. My last pysch said he thinks I am Bi Polar but that would be for my pyschologist to determine.