My husband told me he wanted a divorce nearly a month ago; since then, nothing has happened, mostly because his work has been extremely busy, and tomorrow he and the kids leave on a 2-week trip back East to visit his family. (I can't wait to have the house to myself for a bit, although I'll miss the kids like crazy!)

In the past month, I've slipped up BIG TIME talking to my two older daughters, who next month will be 14 and 13 -- a hard enough age as it is without dealing with your parents divorcing.

I have, in bursts of extreme immaturity, lashed out and told them my husband has likely been bad-mouthing me to his family and that he's corresponding with various women on Facebook, which is why he wants a divorce. I don't really know if either of those is true.

After the first outburst, I sat the kids down (I have a 9-year-old son, too) and explained to them that I'd been really immature to start venting to them, that the divorce is between me and their dad, and that it was not wise of me to start venting about my problems to them. That was several days ago, but I just lost my temper again, viewing some comment on my husband's Facebook page.

I know, I know, I know that I am NOT to get the kids in the middle of this. I love them dearly and do not want them to suffer in any way. Yet I get so upset sometimes, and the atmosphere of tension in the house has been almost unbearable.

When they get back from vacation if he still has not moved out or filed papers I likely will confront him.

Perhaps I should have posted this under the Spiritual Support section. I just hope and pray that I can refrain in the future from making stupid, inappropriate statements to my kids.

I'm just so sad and frustrated....