Thanks Green, that was perfect...exactly what I needed to hear.

I feel much better now, I just get so frustrated. My babies are both very young...both in diapers, and if they begin crying or screaming at the same time...it is very difficult to keep my brain from exploding. I've never yelled, hit, cussed, or anything like that to my kids, but for the first time the ever the other day I told them to shut up........I feel so awful for it. They didn't deserve it, I was already mad about something else.

That's exactly how I feel, I'm my mothers daughter, and I do feel that something bad is waiting to come out to. I'm always paranoid about that.

I do want to be my kids mother....not my mother being their mother.

Thanks alot for replying......thanks for caring.

Desirae