Well for the most part, your right, my life isn't the %#@&#! at the end of the stick. But what I mean by that is I have to work incredibly hard to get what I have. My mom has had everything given to her, and she still has it easy. Is death going to be what ends it?.....that's what scares me.

To be honest I really wanted my mom to go to jail, because that will save her life. But she weasled out of it. She weasled her way out of life. I'm afraid I will get that phone call soon....the one that tells me my mom's gone forever.

My life isn't cake, but I am blessed with perfect little babies, and ultimately I have what I need. And it's great not have to fear for my life as I lay in bed, fear my car will be vandalized when I park, and fear I will be killed by a John. I bet I do sleep better than she does.

Thank you for replying. I'm so open minded to anything...even if it would %#@&#! me off, because at this point I'm completely clueless on what to do now.

I really appreciate it Richard.
Desirae