Lately it seems that I'm thinking more of myself lately. Like in the past week, on top of the OD I'm just feeling terrible about myself. When I think about myself these awful thoughts come to mind and I just have trouble facing each day anymore.

I know I've always felt pretty negative about myself, but usually am very good at hiding it from my conscious mind. It seems like it isn't working...it's all in the front of my mind now.

I feel like such a worthless person, like I can't do anything right, like I have nothing to offer anything....just to name a few things. A lot of people think that I'm this great person, but I'm really having trouble figuring out where they are getting this information from. I just don't see it at all.

I think one of the hardest things I've done lately is wrote my dad a letter. It explains why I OD'd, how I've been feeling, and really what's going on with me. My dad is also my best friend and I feel like I owe him an explanation for my behavior. He is the only person I think I should be concerned with. He always comes first in my life...everyone else follows. Nobody's more important than my dad.