I have always been faithfull to my husband with NO problems, he is everthing to me, and all I have ever wanted. lately I have been strugling with mania, and I do not know what is going on with me. The love for my husband, the atraction, has not changed, yet I went through this whole thing with one of his friends, I told my hubby before anything happened because it felt like someone else was talking and planning with his friend. It scared me now I am still haveing problems with mania and I am flirting with everyone. It makes me feel guilty when I come down, and ashamed how can I be this person!!I do Not want to be that person! I do not know how my hubby is being the way he is, so good. He says it is the illness. How did I get such a great person and still act the way I do? I am use to taking responsabilites for my actions. WOW i need some help?